http://mm-spinelstar.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] mm-spinelstar.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] spinelstar 2011-06-09 03:45 am (UTC)

"I happen to think that all these things are simply tools for refining our self-understanding."

I really like that. That's why this whole thing (researching my chart and whatnot) has been so cool for me lately, and why I've been thinking about it so much. A lot of the descriptions I read about my Sign and other aspects have let me see facets of my personality in a completely different light.

"...every single one of us has the power to remodel ourselves in whatever image we like best."

Have you found that to be true? I never have, really, but maybe that's just how I feel sometimes. I feel like there are just some things about myself that I can't change, and every time I try it's just like I'm hiding behind something. I can control my behaviors and adjust my values (maybe that's what you meant?) but I can't change my nature or how I feel inside. But I guess that's the eternal debate, is how much of ourselves is just "our nature" and how much can we control?

I guess my real question(s), then, is(/are) why do I feel like I have control over so little? Is that normal? Do most people feel that way, or does it vary from person to person how much they can control? Or should I just be working harder? And why does it feel like I'm hating myself whenever I try to change?

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