So much for boredom.

[spinelstar]

My friends, I think I must resign myself to my fate.

Now that there is only one English teacher in my school, the classes are arranged such so that it is humanly possible for him to be present in all of them. And what does that mean for me? That I, too, am also capable of being present in all of them.

Consequently, I am now apparently going to be present in all of them, whether I actually help much during the lesson or not.

What does this mean? Four classes a day, on average. And what does that mean?

No RP, except on weekends. Because I'm just too exhausted and don't have much time anymore.

But I really can't complain, and I especially can't resent my teacher for it. He's a really nice guy. And really, it's a lot more fulfilling than sitting at my desk surfing the internet, and feeling like I'm not helping here at all. Now I get to actually see and talk to my students everday. The only thing that's annoying about it is when I'm sitting there through half the class, watching Niwa-sensei explain things in Japanese, and not doing anything.

Anyways. I was in a drawing mood last night, when I woke up from my nap. So you guys get to see one of my crappy pencil sketches. XD





Yay, it's another Julian. ♥ Reference was model Corey Baptiste.

There are a lot of things wrong with this, and as you can see I got bored with the shading before I could really make it look good. But overall, I'm pretty happy with how it turned out. I really suck at anything resembling realism, lol.

In other semi-related news, I've been getting in touch with my inner Julian, looking up all sorts of things about my astrological Sign. It's really fascinating to me how much I fit into the description of Pisces, even more so when you take into account how my Moon Sign and my Ascendant affect everything as well. And it's especially funny to me because according to my sister's chart, we shouldn’t be as good friends as we are. Heh. (But again, it does creepily describe some of the problems we've had in the past, and even ones we continue to have…)

I'm not sure why I'm so interested in all of it. (I *could* blame my easily-addicted Pisces personality, lol. :3) I guess because the descriptions I read tend to describe my Sign in a mostly-positive light, despite the fact that it fits a lot of the characteristics I don’t like about myself. What I think of as wishy-washy, shy, and hard to get close to, other people describe as adaptive, mysterious, and deeply loyal.

I think I've been trying too hard to fight those things—which has never worked—or even felt guilty for them. I wonder if maybe I could get in touch with them instead. I think I might have even had a subconscious impression that loving and accepting myself either meant not being those things, or that it would at least fix those things once I had "achieved" self-esteem. But maybe those are the very things I need to let myself love, the things other people will grow to love about me (or maybe even already do!).

I don't know. Again, I'm not certain how much I really buy into astrology. But it's gotten me thinking about how I perceive myself, and that's good.

After all, Julian's character is based very heavily on Pisces' personality traits, and I find him absolutely Yummy. ♥


♥'s for everybody! ^.^

Comments

[ceitfianna]

*hugs* I'm glad work is being more fulfilling, tiring always seems to come along with that. I know that's true with where I've looked. I think embracing your nature is a good thing.

Honestly I'm such a Gemini, its not even funny and I find it reassuring to know that. Also I adore Julian and how you play him, he's just so complex. I'd love more threads with him and some of my other pups. I think he and Sameth could really be interesting as Sam's quiet and gets aloof when he thinks people don't like him.

[mm-spinelstar.livejournal.com]

I have such a love for Geminis now, ever since I met Frederick. ♥ Hee.

And yes, more threads must happen. (Lol, let's just make a chart so we make sure that every one of my characters has a thread with every one of yours, okay? XD) I will try to rest up during the weekdays so I have more brain for the weekends. We'll see how it works out for me. I am optimistic. ;)

*hugs and snugs*

[ceitfianna]

That sounds like a good plan especially as I'm going to have more time. Also I'm adoring Nick and William, they're just such boys. Hee, a flow chart would be useful.

I never realized Frederick was a Gemini but that makes so much sense.

[mm-spinelstar.livejournal.com]

It does, doesn't it? XD *hugs him* *and you*

And yes, Nick and William!! ♥ Omigosh I am *anxious* to get back to that thread, hee. They're just so much fun. ^.^ Nick's such a little brat, haha. *snugs William, for he needs much snuggling*

[ceitfianna]

Yes, he does, I tend to play characters that do. The silly thing is he's enjoying a chance to fight. Poor Julian's going to find the boys breaking tables or something and just sigh rather eloquently. Brats are also fun to play, I have a few of them too.

[in-the-blue.livejournal.com]

Psst. Karin. Before I play ANY character, I have to know at least his or her sun sign. Because I'm a Scorpio a lot of my characters tend to be Scorpios too, but I've branched out! Not all are.

(My favorite sun sign analysis)

I could give you a million reasons why Linda Goodman is still my favorite astrologer when it comes to personality assessment, but her words speak enough without me doing it. They're a little dated, culturally speaking, but the characteristics are so spot-on. She's very dynamic, just what anyone would expect from a triple Aries.

You're interested in all of it because Pisces people have a demonstrated knack for being attracted to occult or new-age sorts of things. It's in the genes, astrologically speaking. All water signs share this trait.

~end diatribe on astrology~

I like your drawing!

[mm-spinelstar.livejournal.com]

Thank you, I'm glad you like it! ^o^ ♥

I will have to go read that analysis. >.> You have intrigued me.

And yes, I am suuuuuch a Water Sign; I am in water up to my ears. XD My Rising Sign is Scorpio, too, which explained a lot of the "gaps" I kept finding when I compared myself with most descriptions of a Pisces.

[in-the-blue.livejournal.com]

I have a Pisces moon. Thankfully I'm not all water (Gemini ascendant, which is why I... write so much!).

Once I had a professional astrology reading, which was very cool, and the astrologer told me that the odds of anyone else having a chart identical to anyone else's was some HUGE number, I want to say in the billions-to-one range. We're all just plain unique!

[mm-spinelstar.livejournal.com]

It's true! Especially once you get into all the houses and stuff-- that's always where I get lost. XD Craziness!

I have an Air Sign, too! Libra's my Moon. Which also seemed to explain some things, hee. :3

[in-the-blue.livejournal.com]

Ooh, Libra moon. Interesting chart you have! Sometime we'll have to chat over all this stuff. I've only been doing charts since forever (insert imaginary number of years here). Astrology can provide a fascinating set of guidelines, but none of it is absolute. I like it a lot; it's really interesting as a sort of applied science.

[mm-spinelstar.livejournal.com]

I would love that! I was kind of wondering if anyone might be interested in discussing my chart with me. I'm curious to know if someone else would be able to guess any of the stuff I perceived and got out of it.

Also, I haven't yet looked at anything that has all of my information together, just descriptions of what each of the three means for me, separately. So chatting about them all at once with another person would probably be helpful.

I'd love to hear more about yours, too-- it sounds just as interesting. ;)

[in-the-blue.livejournal.com]

Aye aye, sir! I'm usually around and have AIM going in the evenings here. We'll find each other.

[ceitfianna]

I can see why you love that analysis, its so spot on. I need to bookmark it and read more when I don't have work in the morning.

Since I'd always known I was quite a Gemini but I can just see myself so much in there.

[in-the-blue.livejournal.com]

Yes, I've owned so many copies of that book for reference that I never mind sharing copies of it online. Be sure to read up on your moon sign and rising sign too for a more complete and blended interpretation!